When tomorrow comes, no one should say anything on this matter. And it shall be that way till infinity or rather, for as long as possible.
I don’t want to have to answer anything to anyone any more. Call me stupid or whatever, after all that has been said and done, I still have that bit of faith in her. I won’t lie and say that I’ve totally given up on her. Not because I’m a fickle-minded person but because I know how it feels to be given up by someone close.
No matter how angry/upset/disappointed/hurt I was, you know that at the end of the day, I still won’t be able to leave everything (and I mean every single thing) behind and move on.
And that’s when you know how much this whole thing means to me.
But thank you for all the feedbacks that you guys have given me. Thank you for being honest and thank you for listening. I gotta let you know though, I’m always open to views and opinions but when the time comes, I make my own choice and decision.
All that aside, I miss Jen and I can’t tell you how much exactly because it’s beyond words. Having said that, I can confidently say that no one else (excluding Mel and Tze) misses her as much as I do considering the fact that we were close. I’m still holding on to the memories that we once shared and the hope of seeing her some day in the future.
I still wish that you were here.