“Logic may take us from A to B, but imagination takes us everywhere.” I was really happy like I always am whenever we decide to have an impromptu chill-out session.

It didn’t end there.

That 15 seconds made me happier, Jas, really. Purely coincidental and I thought to myself, “Well, I guess I made the right decision to cab to school for the submission and then waited for some time before deciding to board the bus. I may have given up 7 bucks but I earned something greater in return, something priceless.” You know, it takes someone special to make me happy even without that person doing anything.

Today, I feel like I’ve got the whole world in my hand – a feeling I lost but now have found. Thank God for my best friend and my awesome friend. You guys don’t know how happy I was, to be smiling and laughing like the sky is limitless. Thank God for your existence.

Ms. Chua won’t be reading this but I’m also thankful for the deadline extension. Because of the 2-hour extension that I was able to spend quality time with Shaz and witness everything else fall into place.

Thank you.

If life doesn’t give you any reason to smile or cry, then consider it wasted.

It’s really easy to say that life’s good when in truth, it isn’t exactly that way.

I’ve got an exceptionally hectic schedule, I’m sure I’m not the only one but I’m just gonna make it sound like I’m the only one, all for the purposes of this blog post.

I’ve been physically worn out by the projects and assignments. They’re endless.

Everyone’s been exceptionally nice toward me lately, and sometimes, I can’t help but start to wonder why. They try to know me, understand me better. I appreciate that, I really do. But that sent a small part of me wishing that my best friend would start paying a little attention to me. I hate feeling like I’m being neglected, in fact, I shouldn’t even be feeling that way. It’s not right, is it?

Oh well… that aside.

Did I mention that I’ve been leading a very hectic life? Yes I think I did, somewhat. I’m just afraid that I’d end up neglecting people, be it for the right reason or otherwise. I don’t like giving myself the excuse that it’s okay to neglect my loved ones, no matter how busy I am and can get.

I don’t want history to repeat itself. I don’t want anyone to give up on me and leave me just because it appears to them that I’m neglecting them in the course of my hectic lifestyle, or that they feel neglected in a way or another.

Do you know how stupid it is to lose someone so dear to such allegation?

I do, and in fact, too well.

I’m not gonna let it happen again.

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I spent hours reminiscing those times. Only God knows how much I miss Jen. It’s keeping me awake. I told Him how badly I want to see her again, not just in my dreams.

I’ll visit you someday. I promise. Please wait for me.

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On the first day, I ended work at 7.30PM when it was supposed to end at 6.30PM (well, according to the agreement). The subsequent days didn’t get any better after that day.

8.00PM, 8.30PM, 9.00PM, 9.30PM, 9.40PM.

My schedule makes it difficult for me to spend time with my family and friends. There’s no way I can meet up with friends after work because it’d be too late at night. Sometimes, I’d ask myself, “why me? why not the other 2 interns from our school?” but then again, I guess everything happens for a reason. God must have planned something for me.

Though I cannot deny how exhausted I am, I have to say that I enjoy interning with my firm. Because of its small size, experiences are abundant. The veterans are friendly and helpful. They (including my boss) are humble people. Thank God for them. I am happy there. And I’ve definitely gotten used to going to work early and ending work late. (Only interns report to work at 9AM by the way!)

Do you know how it feels to be forgotten by someone you love?

Do you know how it feels to be neglected?

Do you know how it feels after failing to get just 10 minutes of their time, their attention without any distraction?

I’ve had too much on my plate, to the point that I have no time for anything else. But still, I took the time to ask about you because I cared. Isn’t it becoming more obvious now that the things that I do for you define ‘lameness’, while the things they do for you define ‘awesomeness’?

It looks like I haven’t contributed enough ‘awesomeness’ to your life for you to actually miss me. So I’m done.

You were upset when I ignored you. Should I be upset too that you always forget things that you said to me, the things you said you’d do for me? Not once, but always.  

I know we’re not as close any more, but do you realize how much I miss you?

You only spent 5 minutes on me before you got distracted with/by something else, with someone else. And again, not the first time.

I’m done waiting.

I loved you.  

Psst, I’ve been going out every single day and it’s slowly becoming a mundane kinda thing. The internship’s not helping because we’ll definitely have to step out of house every weekday. Lol.

Here are a few of those moments, the ones that I can share and reveal via pictures:

(From the most recent one) No pictures YET, I went for the class BBQ cum chalet. Well, of course I did, I was one of the two organizers. Plus! Who’d actually give it a miss? No words can describe how awesome it was. Oh yes, my Sub-Comm and I did a surprise for Ms Cyn as well. Very well executed! Everything was worth it. – 8/9 to 10/9.

May and I attended the Law Arts Night. It wasn’t exactly the best thing that happened but I was glad we went for it, because it gave us more opportunity to spend time together.

First time doing something silly like this. Haha. Whatever that happened after we got home wasn’t exactly pleasant, on my side that is. I think I cut my own life short by what I did. Tsk. Oh and before going for this event, met Shaz for an ice cream treat at Swensen’s. Hehe. – 7/9/11.

 So we finally got to meet outside of school, like after a billion years. LOL. We went KBOX-ing, Starbucks-ing and then relaxed at SRC. Not enough time to do more things because May had to leave early. But it was still a great day!

 Must be one of the slow songs. Because it got crazy after this!

Dancing away. On that day, I really took on a few roles – soloist, backup singer, backup dancer. If there was a competition on being the best at doing all 3, I think I may have won the title. Hahaha. If you think I’m ‘crazy’, go with me to KBOX and I’ll show you the real definition of crazy. ;)

It really wasn’t difficult at all to take pics with me on that day. I was generous with my appearance. Very. LOL.

 And that to conclude the 3-in-1 Outing (only because I’m too lazy to go on). – 2/9/11.

May and I met up on 1/9/11 to get something done. And whatever that we did on that day, it’s still with me now. Things are definitely not going as planned. Oh well. We also went shopping! I witnessed a theft as well. I wonder how’s the sales assistant doing now. :\ No pictures because we forgot. Zzz. But we had fun! Lots.

Okay, I’ll just post upfew  random pics from now on.

Okay, I’m gonna end here because of the same reason – lazy. -___-

Internship = Busy schedule. More than ever. But still, if you guys need me to be with you, give me a call or send me a text message, just let me know, I’ll try my best to be there for you.

Love y’all.

Jen, I miss you so much.

Jas, I miss you too. I’m sorry.

Jasmine came first with 119 comments. Lol. Okay, that’s random.

Anyway, there’s an impromptu, flexible and optional Orientation tomorrow. The time’s not fixed but I’ll be meeting Chrissy at 1.45pm. Think it’s gonna be for a few hours.

SIP launch falls on Tuesday, and it officially starts on Wednesday.

Hmm…

-I’m taking forever to complete this post, 1 hour has gone by already-

Actually it’s not that difficult, if it weren’t for Time. Then again, I understand. Very well.

I see this as another challenge for me. God, I loveeee challenges. LOL. Okay now that’s 80% true. Or maybe 90%, it depends! -______-

Ah but okay, whatever uhh.

I was totally uncontactable, still am.

If you were disappointed with me, I was too, with myself. But I thought you’d understand that it wasn’t anything intentional.

Sincere apologies to the girls.

I’m tired of being treated as someone insignificant and dispensable, like tissue paper.

I’ve long suffered the side effects of loving and giving too much, and receiving too little.

USA bestfriend, what am I supposed to do? I’m tired of being the most understanding and the nicest friend that I am and can be only to be taken for granted.

But the problem with me is that, no matter how many times I say “I’m tired”, I’m the kind who can never turn my back against another. Especially someone so dear to me.

I’m tired…of being tired.